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i hate the way i look. i hate how my head is too small for my body and that my cheeks are round and my eyes are too small and close together. i hate that i’m not petite, that my stomach isn’t flat, that i have this weird loose skin on my neck, that i have no curves, that my legs aren’t long, and most of all, i hate my man shoulders. i hate them.

i hate that i look muscular even though i’m not, that they disproportionally make the rest of my body look bigger than it is, that they make me look at a man.

sometimes i look in the mirror and i can’t see anything remotely feminine about myself. i could curl my hair and paint my nails and put makeup on and it wouldn’t make a difference. 

i don’t wear pink, and i don’t wear floral patterns because i hate those things, and because of that i bury my last hope of trying to look like a girl. i wish i could wear oversized sweaters and look good instead of like a fucking pumpkin.

i’m not skinny, and i’m not cute. i hate every single picture of myself that’s been taken since sophomore year of high school. people always wonder why i hate being in pictures when i like taking them so much, and that’s the reason.

i could really damn cry every time someone mentions my arms, my neck, or my face, even if it’s just a joke, because i already know, and they don’t have to keep telling me because i know, i know i know.

i’m fat, and i’m ugly, and no one knows that better than me.

momongamon:

Juliette Ackerman by Jingyu Lin

nice to know some of my work is getting a bit of exposure <3

momongamon:

Juliette Ackerman by Jingyu Lin

nice to know some of my work is getting a bit of exposure <3

boysbygirls:

James Hoar at Nevs Model Agency photographed by Sophie Mayanne in this week’s editorial “An Urban Adventure”. Styling by Kitty Cowell. James wears shirt by Peter Jensen and trousers by Kit Neale. See full editorial here. 

boysbygirls:

James Hoar at Nevs Model Agency photographed by Sophie Mayanne in this week’s editorial “An Urban Adventure”. Styling by Kitty Cowell. James wears shirt by Peter Jensen and trousers by Kit Neale. See full editorial here

the official release of “imperium” at last <3

dakotagordon:

Fernanda @ Priscilla’s for PITCH
Styling - Judy Lee
Hair - Kyye Reed
Makeup - Samantha Lee

dakotagordon:

Fernanda @ Priscilla’s for PITCH

Styling - Judy Lee

Hair - Kyye Reed

Makeup - Samantha Lee

dakotagordon:

Fernanda @ Priscilla’s for PITCH
Styling - Judy Lee
Hair - Kyye Reed
Makeup - Samantha Lee

dakotagordon:

Fernanda @ Priscilla’s for PITCH

Styling - Judy Lee

Hair - Kyye Reed

Makeup - Samantha Lee

dakotagordon:

Abbie @ IMG for Oyster Magazine
Hair/makeup/style - Colette Miller

dakotagordon:

Abbie @ IMG for Oyster Magazine

Hair/makeup/style - Colette Miller